I've been thinking about my daughters in law a LOT lately. I 've been thinking I don't have any daughters myself and I would LOVE to pass on some "motherly wisdom" to somebody....
I must confess I am a bit scared of the future, and how my boys will choose to raise their kids. I'm scared I won't know when to shut up and when to back down. I'm scared they won't raise my grandkids to know and honor God. I'm scared we won't teach them to know and honor God in a way that they will remain in church, and make godly decisions. I'm scared we don't "walk the talk" in front of them. I'm scared we lack a LOT in our spiritual walk. I'm scared to be fake in front of them. I don't want to be fake. I want to be the real deal! I want to live out Christ in front of them. I want them to see God's love pour out of me.
Have I done that today? I know I haven't. We've had a rough day today. Bad attitudes, talking back, disrespect, and spanking. I'm now typing this. I'm very convicted. I want to live out Christ. I want my boys to "read" me and say "Wow, my mom was an amazing godly woman. I want my children to have a mother just like her." Can they say that right now? No. I'm embarrassed to say that I have failed miserably today. And most days to be honest. Why can't I just get it right?
I believe God wants me to depend on HIM DAILY for strength.
